"Teeter Totter"

As I walk in my own strength, I am unbalanced, teeter tottering to the left and to the right. On either side of me is electrified walls. The walls represent my personality, or for an even closer look, my attitude towards others. As I walk with the legs of a frightened child, I begin to fall left. I get caught up acting one way and I get electrified. When I try to my move, I push so hard away from one wall, I have no balance; so I fall right on to the other, acting a different way and getting electrified. This happens so much my body is burned with the pain of mirroring my surroundings consequences. I fall on the ground after being defeated, bruised, crying, dying, weak. As I attempt to stand, it takes a strength that I am unaware of, a strength I have never had, to lift me to my feet. From there, I continue to walk to my destination...

Another vision I had from God as I was falling asleep. The walls can mean anything to anyone, but for me it represented an internal conflict that I fight daily. A conflict of hiding a truth, or avoiding acting like my parents, when I do it anyway. Its trying to do things with my own strength when it is not enough to overcome what ails me or pains me. At the end of the story, i begin to stand, but I don't understand how. This is what God wants. This is when I must trust in God to come and help me stand, stand in my own character created by him. And by standing

I mean growing from a foundation set by him that I may not slip or fall. God equips me with some Nike boots you know? Something that can withstand terrain, and weather, and assist me as I climb. As I climb to the mountain top, I must remember my growth is not at the top, but in the journey to the top. And as I keep my balance and I stand on his foundation, even if I do slip, I haven't noticed the distance between me and the walls have separated. They have separated so far, that I no longer hit a wall when I fall, I just get slapped by my foundation I was standing on. That way, I can remember what it took to stand, and how to walk again. And as I walk, I can climb again. All this until I reach my destination...